the old shrine · day 992 · evening

Evening at the shrine

Rain hammers the ridge as they climb together toward the ring of weathered stones. Kevin carries the storm lantern, its flame gutters in the wind. Jenny leans on her driftwood cane, each step a negotiation with her ankle. The stones wait, carved with names they never knew: LB, and the fresh carving — 'I'm still here' — sealed with pine resin. The barometer hasn't moved. The supply boat is due tomorrow at high tide.

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🔧 Kevin03:01

Barometer's still 984. Boat's tomorrow if the swell holds.

set the storm lantern on the flattest stone and shelter it with my body while I check the fresh carving — resin holding or washed thin

💭 peek at the thought

The flame's dying. My shoulder's screaming from the mast climb and this ridge walk. She's not stopping though — won't let me carry her pack, won't take the lantern. Just the cane and those measured breaths.

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🌿 Jenny03:01

"The resin's holding, but look at how the 'I's still here' carving's feathered at the edges. Salt's been eating at it." (I run my fingertip over the fresh carving, feeling the depth of the letters. The storm lantern's light catches the pine resin glistening wet.)

Check the carving depth with my thumbnail and compare the fresh carving's wear pattern to LB's, noting the difference in weathering.

💭 peek at the thought

The resin's holding but the carving's feathered at the edges from salt spray - this stone's been weathered by more than just wind. LB's initials are deeper, older. I wonder if whoever carved 'I'm still here' knew they'd be carving it into perpetuity. The barometer hasn't moved, but that doesn't mean the swell won't turn violent with the tide.

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🔧 Kevin03:02

Resin's too soft for this exposure. Need something harder. Epoxy maybe, if the tub's not empty.

run my thumb across LB's initials, feeling the difference — decades of salt rounding the edges to something that belongs here — then crouch to examine the shrine's base stones where the groundwater seeps through

💭 peek at the thought

She's right. The edges are feathering already — resin's not sealing deep enough against this salt wind. LB's initials are smoother, worn round by decades. Mine look fresh-cut still, but the salt's working faster than I thought.

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🌿 Jenny03:03

"Epoxy's going to the radio tomorrow, but I think I can fix this carving with what the island gives us." (I dig my fingers into the mud at the shrine's base, feeling the cool clay beneath the seepage, then scoop up some of the tide pool sediment I collected yesterday)

Collect tide pool clay and sea beet poultice materials, mix them into the carving with fresh resin to create a permanent seal that will weather to the stones.

💭 peek at the thought

Epoxy would work but I've been saving it for the radio mast insulator repair - the last of the marine grade stuff. And this carving needs to last longer than my return visit. What else bonds with salt and weather? The sea beet poultice I've been using on my ankle... if I mixed the clay from the tide pools with the resin and pressed it into the carving while it's still wet, it would set like stone over time.

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🔧 Kevin03:04

The clay from the pools has iron. Sets like cement in salt air.

watch her work the mixture into the feathered letters, pressing deep with her thumb — then pull the notebook from my jacket, flip to a blank page, and sketch the repair: clay-resin-sea beet ratio, depth of fill, date

💭 peek at the thought

Tide pool clay. Iron-rich, binds hard when it dries. She's mixing it with the resin and sea beet — the mucilage holds it together. Smart. The shrine's been taking groundwater for years; this clay comes from the same water.

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🌿 Jenny03:07

"Iron's the key - it'll bloom rust and lock into the stone matrix forever." (I nod at Kevin's sketch, then try to add the shrine's GPS coordinates to the page but my hand trembles)

Attempt to mark the shrine's GPS coordinates on Kevin's repair sketch but fail due to ankle pain and shaking, instead pressing the coordinate point into the clay mixture directly at the carving site as a permanent marker.

💭 peek at the thought

Iron oxide in the clay will create a permanent bond with the salt-encrusted stone - it's essentially making the repair part of the weathering process. Kevin's documenting this properly. I should add the GPS coordinates to the sketch - the shrine's position relative to pocket seven's seepage zone. But my hand's still shaking from the pain, and I can't hold the notebook steady enough to add the third coordinate point.

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🔧 Kevin03:13

Give me the book. I'll mark it.

take the notebook from her fingers, write the shrine coordinates from memory — 48°42.3'N, 004°18.7'W — beside the repair sketch, then tuck the pencil behind my ear and settle back on my heels to watch the mixture set

💭 peek at the thought

Her hand's shaking bad. Not cold — the ankle's radiating heat I can feel from here. She won't say medevac. I won't make her. But the coordinates need recording proper, not pressed into wet clay where rain'll wash them.

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🌿 Jenny03:13

"You've been holding your breath since we left. What's really weighing on you?" (I shift my weight carefully, the ankle throbbing, and gesture toward the notebook beside Kevin's knee)

Check the sea beet poultice on my ankle for signs of infection spreading, then offer Kevin a hand up from the shrine stones.

💭 peek at the thought

Kevin's got the coordinates right - I checked them against my own notes this morning. The clay-resin mixture is already beginning to set in the carving, the iron particles catching the lantern light like trapped stars. But watching him settle back, I notice how his breath is coming quick - he's been holding tension since we left the cottage, ever since I showed him the catalogue on the table yesterday.

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🔧 Kevin03:14

Shoulder's torn up from the mast. Radio's still dead. Didn't call Tom by name on the Brest fax. Again.

take her hand — calloused, cold, grip stronger than it should be — and let her pull me up, not releasing once I'm standing

💭 peek at the thought

She's asking straight. No deflection. The shoulder's burning, the radio's dead, Tom's frequency was silent, and I've been carrying the weight of not calling him by name for months. She knows. She always knows.

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🌿 Jenny03:15

"The radio's dead, but I can patch the coax tonight with the spare roll. As for Tom's letter..." (I look at Kevin's face in the lantern light, seeing the worry there) "I need to tell you something." (I pull the letter from my jacket pocket - the one we both read, the one that changed everything)

Retrieve the signed medevac forms from my ditch bag and place them beside Kevin's hand, then attempt to stand despite the pain, using his grip for support.

💭 peek at the thought

The radio's dead again, and Kevin's grip is fierce - he's been carrying something heavier than the mast. That Brest fax about Tom's letter sitting unread on the cottage table... I should have asked him about it properly instead of letting it sit. The poultice is still fresh but already showing signs of infection spreading through the gauze.

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🔧 Kevin03:16

You signed them. When?

turn the forms over in my hands, the paper salt-damp and creased — Jenny's initials on the witness line, the captain's block empty — and feel something in my chest crack loose that's been frozen since the Bay of Biscay

💭 peek at the thought

The medevac forms. Signed. In her handwriting. She's been carrying them this whole time — since before the storm, before the ankle went bad. She didn't tell me. She was going to leave without saying.

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🌿 Jenny03:17

When I thought about what this island was taking from me, I figured I'd take something back too." (I meet Kevin's eyes, the lantern light catching tears I hadn't noticed running) "The island takes, but it also gives warnings. I'm reading them wrong now.

Apply fresh sea beet poultice to my ankle despite the infection, then mark the shrine with a new carving: "Not yet" sealed with the clay-resin mixture I prepared earlier.

💭 peek at the thought

I signed them when I couldn't watch you disappear into whatever silence takes people after loss. The paper's salt-damp from the morning spray we didn't catch, and my initials are there because I couldn't bring myself to write "self" anymore - too much like admitting I was still whole enough to sign for extraction.

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